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Let us talk about trust…

Well, I am not saying that people can always trust me. There are also times when I break their trusts.

But talking about trust, let us talk about “trusting between friends”. I am the person who trusts people around me easily. Because for me, that’s a way for me to know if I can trust them. If I have proven that I cannot really trust them, then it would be hard for me to do so.

There are also some friends whom you thought you could always trust, that’s why you called them “friends”. Not “trust” in a way that you’re asking for help but they cannot give. What I mean is all the while, you thought that everything is good between him/her and you. All the while, you’ll just know that what you are thinking is wrong. You’ll feel betrayed… What hurts the most is, you considered him as a good friend but why did it go wrong? That what really hurts me. I really tried to be a good friend to him. I don’t care if you say that I have too much pride, but I don’t think I deserve this.

Call me demanding too,  but all I want is a “sorry”. Then I’d be able to forget. For now, there is no closure yet.

I love him because he is my friend that’s why I am hurt. I just hope that he knows it.

I might be the type of person who can trust easily, but if lose my trust in a person, it’s hard for me to get it back. But I don’t close my door for anything. Just like what I said earlier, I am not a perfect person too…

I am not bringing back the past. I just want a closure so I can move on.